18 October 2008


Backtracking #2

I've been backtracking some more. Actually, I blog all the time, but when I don't feel too hot or am too busy I only take notes which I "transform" into posts at a later point. Today I have had enough energy to finish a few more entries. There is one on Marius' new hair do, a birthday, a noteworthy cafe tour, and more on spiders. Go and check it out.



I've been feeling depressed and shitty (to put it mildly). Today is the first day in what feels like an eternity where I don't feel totally hopeless and am not overwhelmed with pain.
Generally speaking I've come a long way and am a lot better. But every once in a while I fall back into the dark, pain and hopelessness. I am a bit at a loss as to why. My dark moods come out of the blue and overwhelm me and can last between 2 - 3 days or 2-3 weeks. I've been trying to find out what it is that trips these periods, but I cannot really put my finger on anything more specific than: I don't have the energy to do all the things that demand attention and/or taking care of or: Too many things I care about turn out "wrong". The interesting thing is that my dark mood just as easily can vanish from one day to the next - again, I haven't fount out why.

Anyway, I've done a lot of thinking the last few days. Since I can't figure out (at least for now) how I can prevent myself from falling into the bottomless pit, I've decided to write down what it is that can lift my spirits. It is almost impossible to see anything positive when I am all moody and depressed, therefore I think a list will help.

14 October 2008


Blogthings Quiz: What's Your Ideal Pet?

Your Ideal Pet is a Cat
You're both aloof, introverted, and moody.
And your friends secretly wish that you were declawed!
What's" Your Ideal Pet?

No news there... ;-)

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