21 February 2009
First Real Snow This Winter
So, it's nearly March. Time for the first real business, heavy, wet snow this winter.Usually I like snow. But at the moment I long for sunshine and warmth - and everything and anything that will make me feel less depressed, tired, hopeless and angry.
I had a wonderful Christmas vacation where I relaxed, read, visited friends and in general enjoyed life and myself.
Then I came home and the first week of work claimed most of my regained energy. Hassles with doctors and "normal" annoyances took what was left. I was not all bad and I do have very good days. On the whole, the energy I gain on the good days evaporates at work and goes to fueling my anger. Anger is very energy consuming, but it feels better to use my energy to fuel anger and trying to change things. I know that anger is the wrong medium for change. I have tried reason, believe me, and the only other thing I can muster at the moment is drifting off in despair and hopelessness. Anger feels better.
I do try to concentrate on doing things that make me feel better. Blogging is one of them, and behind the scenes I have been writing a little here and there. As I said: I have good days and things to tell. And so I will. Soon, I hope.
# posted by me @ 17:39 
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I had the same experience - a very nice and relaxing Christmas Holiday - and then smack! Back to work. Maybe most people feel like that in the beginning of January?
Yes, anger is a tough feeling to carry about and therefore it should be avoided, if possible. But that's probably also the only reason to avoid anger.
Correct, anger may definitely cause one to do silly things that are regretted afterwards. But the same is true for other moods as happiness (carelessnes), sadness (disregard/ignorance) etc. So in that respect anger is no special emotion.
Also right, sociologically anger is something we try to expell, maybe because angry people tend to cause changes to our lives. Nevertheless anger, in my mind, is a very clear sign of healthiness. Anger means that you know what you want and what you don't, what you like and what you dislike. When people succeed in suppressing their own anger, I really start to get scared.
So, sure, anger is better than any contrived alternative.
Snow today! Waouw! But almost gone already. Does that mean spring is just around the corner?
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Yes, anger is a tough feeling to carry about and therefore it should be avoided, if possible. But that's probably also the only reason to avoid anger.
Correct, anger may definitely cause one to do silly things that are regretted afterwards. But the same is true for other moods as happiness (carelessnes), sadness (disregard/ignorance) etc. So in that respect anger is no special emotion.
Also right, sociologically anger is something we try to expell, maybe because angry people tend to cause changes to our lives. Nevertheless anger, in my mind, is a very clear sign of healthiness. Anger means that you know what you want and what you don't, what you like and what you dislike. When people succeed in suppressing their own anger, I really start to get scared.
So, sure, anger is better than any contrived alternative.
Snow today! Waouw! But almost gone already. Does that mean spring is just around the corner?
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